A Little Scary.....

So, today I emailed my mom my blog....she's the first person I sent it to. Of course, my mom is "safe". She's my mom! She's going to love me no matter what (at least I think she is) and I know she is a Christian woman as well. So, again...she's "safe". It's easy to tell people how you feel when you know they feel and think the same way as you. I started to get a little bit of anxiety about forwarding this to my friends (new and old). I'm wondering how some will react, if some will think of me differently, if they'll still like me. Hard to admit, but true. I've decided that, ultimately, I care most what God thinks. And, my faith doesn't mean too much if I keep it a "secret"...if I only share it with the people that I know are Christians too. Plus, I love my family and friends too much to NOT share with them what I know...what God taught me and what He is still teaching me.

Well, back to my week....and Jim being home all week. He said he thought I would be acting different this week since he worked from home. He thought he was making a major deposit into my "emotional bank account"! Ha! (he reads too many books) Even though I truly am ecstatic he is home, I guess I'm not expressing it very well. This is a good example of how I really do take Jimbo for granted. This guy loves me through good and bad, mean and stressed, short-fused and grumpy. Sometimes I am in awe he even puts up with me! He truly shows me unconditional love....at an unexplainable level. A few nights ago, I laid awake wondering about this.....I think Jim's love for me is a symbol of just how much God loves me....no matter what, through good and bad, etc, etc. I am so thankful our kids have such an amazing, Godly dad. And, of course, I'm thankful to have him as my husband.