Hey!  I'm alive.  Not blogging much lately though.  We've been busy doing summer things like water parks, beaches, school shopping (most recently).  This has been a summer of discernment for me.  I was offered a position (two actually!) and I just could not determine if taking one of these positions was God's plan for me.  I decided not to take the first position simply because it required me to be in an office.  I love the organization...and, I am actually volunteering for them as opposed to formal employment.  I'm doing their Sponsorship Newsletters (from home).  I love being able to help!   The other position is a bit more complex and was presented to me, literally, a day or two after I was offered the previously-mentioned job.  Is this getting confusing yet?  I  continue to wonder why I was put in this predicament.  Two jobs.  Not looking for a job, officially.  Why two job offers?  So, long story short....I have wavered back and forth about the 2nd job for months!  I mean that literally!  It's been months!  I've accepted the position.  Then, changed my mind.  Then, accepted again.  And, ultimately decided against it.  I thought it was something God wanted me to do.  Then, I was convinced that it was not.  This seriously could go on all night.....describing my pendulum-like decision-making.  I'm normally really good about making a decision.  I'm usually so confident once I make a decision.  Why all the flailing around like a flounder?  I have not been able to discern God's will concerning this position, period.  It's made me question whether I listen to my will or His (in past decision-making).  It's made me question whether I do things for man or for God.  I want to do everything for God.  But, I think I also do things for man...in other words...I have a touch of the people-pleasing "disease".  I don't think people-pleasing is healthy.  I'm not saying I want to be in conflict with people.  Not at all!  I just realized that I need to do what I think is right even if it is at the expense of not "pleasing" another. 

So, there you have it.  Some stuff going on  in my life.  And, I will post some pics next time to show you some fun summer happenings.  Payton will be going back to school in 2 weeks!  How is that possible?  Connor has an extra week of summer.  Hmmmmmm, what will we do without Payton??  Well, first off, I won't have to referee anymore....  :)