It's Been a Long Time.....

Wow, I haven't been on here in quite some time. I have had several people ask why I took my blog down. And, I guess I never really fully answered that question. To be honest, I was feeling somewhat hypocritical in the things I was writing. I was going through a period where I felt somewhat disconnected from God and from the way he intends for me to live my life. My language was not the greatest, I was participating in gossip at times, my patience with my kids was dwindling, I wasn't treating my husband the way he deserves to be treated and I was struggling with quite a bit of selfishness. And, here I am writing about my faith and how God is the center of my life.

I don't know why it took so long but today as I was exercising....I came to the very simple realization that God already knows I am going to sin (i.e. all of the things I previously listed) but He will love and forgive me anyhow. He is always going to bring me back to Himself if I am willing to listen. What is amazing to me is how God is so subtle and gentle about making me take notice of the sin in my life. If God were human, I'm sure He would have "blasted" me quite some time ago. But, thankfully, He is not.

As Christians we are sometimes under a microscope. People are always waiting for us to fail/sin so they can say "Look! See! He/She calls herself a Christian", etc. It's hard to always live the way God wants me to in a world like ours. I have realized over the last few months that I do not have to be perfect, I will sin and I will fail. The most remarkable part of this is that God has already forgiven me. God doesn't want me to beat myself up for not living up to a standard that only Jesus can hold.